sOcail barriers

Hey!!!!!!

I've always been a patriotic person... n i still am... this patriotism is been gifted to me from my family... well but as life is passing by and i c around... i c ppl who just don;t wanna change... i c ppl unfaithful for what they should be fulfilling n i c ppl following the same orthodox thinking...

Mashallah i've been lucky throughout my life that i wasn't imposed with any external obligations... i've been told n taught to differ between the right n the wrong n rest of the decision making authority was all mine... i didn't understood at first... coz i wanted my guardians to take the decision for me i mean show concern... but later i understood that the things i took as concern was not actually the care but i wanted them to impose things on me...

n now m old enough n as i have understood the stuff n started taking my own decisions... and that of the life i've always dreamt to live is just about to be there... the society barriers stands in my way... infact the barriers which i think have commenced in my close ones... i don't know if im right or not but yeah i think the orthodox complicated thinking to the society has been imposed not on my guardian's mind... aa aaaa my siblings mind.... yeah though they r younger than i m but still u c getting along wid them reflects wat they feel n how keen they r not to let a gender discrimination come to an end... i don;t know if i support my siblings or not in thier good or in their bad decisions but i m sure of it that i definitely guide them to become a better person... i try my level best to it but it seems m failing now coz all they do is just not to listen to what is said about their betterment... i guess even this is my fault i wouln't have imposed so much or forced them so much from the beginning then the result wouldn't have been like this... but in few things when i m ok wid them y don;t they r supportive of me... i wish to live independently, i wish to study from abroad, i wish i do everything on my own without burdoning my parents i just wish i get my siblings support coz their single NO bring me 10 steps back from the destination i wanted to reach...

n wat the hell how many stupid time i worte the word I here... life is best lived on ur own terms n conditions... hopeful to let it be true in my case...