joining the bloggers league again n hello to 1st job interview

hey!!!
have been out of blogging thing for past i guess 6 months or so; had so many ups and downs in life actually to be very precise i was going through my examinations n now as i am free and officially became an engineer u can say i m now in search of an appropriate job... living in Pakistan with chemical engineer bachelors degree in hand and the fact to show n prove myself to the rest of the world that yes i have done wat i aimed for 6 years back just seems so difficult...

To tell you the truth; i gave few job written tests and now up for long awaited interviews. but the spirit and enthusiasm i had when i was keeping only the perception of giving the interviews has now died down... i don't know if it is such a problem only wid me but when i go infront of the intervieweee i start babbling the things i never prepared for n shouldn't say. though at my first interview i practised pretty well but then i ended up making silly n the most undesirable mistakes i could have possibly do.

1st thing while i was introducing myself i brought my cast in between... which ofcourse is a complete NO NO... then after that when interviewee asked me the reason why i chose this chemical engineering feild being a female; i took his question n rephrase it that ' i often get this that this is a male oriented field ' at this i completely got an unfavorable answer that he didn't say that... thus rephrasing interviewees question in ur answer is not allowed.

next blunder i made was related to the question abt the company i completely delivered the ratified stuff i read last night regarding the company and added few more sentences on my own n started with the profitablility stuff which ofcourse was not my feild i should've spoken about the products and chemical related applications and stuff again a complete ruin... after that when interviewee asked me abt my skills as chemical engineer i ended up saying i don;t have much idea abt it regarding the 3 questions i completely had no knowledge abt. but at that time wat cud i have possibly said... i should've gone prepared in terms of my technical side... and in the end when they asked me to leave so tensed i was that i forgot to take my bag n then returned and took it back completely making a fool of myslef.... URGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

coming out i saw few brilliant students of my class came to give the interview and my confidence level shattered coz at first my inetrview and my mistakes will sank me; and God forbid if i do stand any chance they'll take it from me.... so this was my sad story abt the 1st job interview i ever gave...

life just doesn't exactly go as u planned it or the way u want to lead and live it... so this interview went just like that; can't say much where i stand now but i'll definitely make sure that next time i don't make such mistakes or probably make some new ones so that i can correct myself for the next to next time n so on :) m still hopeful!!! wid sparkling eyes :)