yeah i m hurt, yup i hate to the ignored, and i m devastated, being rejected is the worst feeling in the world, fine i didn't stand up to your standards but this doesn't mean that you just let me waiting and hang in there for the x period of time. this is not what v call gentlemen manners.
At this state, i myself m at the verge of vulnerability, i never thought waiting for somebody ur gonna be with for the rest of ur life will be this difficult. It'll be with such immense pain, i m totally emotionally fragile at the moment, dont really know whether i should express it in front of everybody or keep it a secret... its for the second time this thing has taken place with me. and honestly one more time i promise i wont ever marry again, if marriage is such a pain at the beginning now wonder i wont b able to bear this relationship later too. and that too on the stack of my career, dreams and goals, may b i should sketch somebody with whom i m gonna be with for the rest of my life in the mind because such ppl stay focused but frankly speaking those ppl do get a lot of choices too.. Whereas i m completely a local girl, having no grace what so ever in my life or no self esteem at all... I should rather die instead, i m not even sounding positive now, lost my focus and now m seriously becoming desperate. i should seriously do something abt it...
this should not stay like this for a long time; or else i'll do something really bad with myself or suffer for the rest of my life. i m just heading no where. i hate myself. i dont wanna talk to anybody abt this personal matter; i m just off with it.
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