Mishel's entry into our life

 On 21st march 2017 i underwent a pregna test and it camd out positive,  initially i was unable to accept it... Made millions of arguments to Allah that He must not have done this to me after some really big fight i went thru with my husband few weeks back and where i made some stern decision vd myself that if something like this repeats i vl have to leave. For which in my case i did some prep as well.

Anyways after thd result ibwas shattered and it took me few days to swallow the fact that may be its for my Good may be things vl get better after this as most of the arguments bw me anf my hysband since Aarub turned 1 were maknly about concieving anf having next child.  But i cudnt do it due to my feeding. 
However this news when revealed to the family camd out quiet pleasantly. And in somd days my husbands behaviour actually changed.  Few turns and twists were there in his moods but since ive beared alot worst than that i was taking it lightly.  M still in my 4th month and things so far are quiet better and I believe and pray it remains thjs way forever IA
Things regarding some heartily wishes. I want my 2nd child to be a boy. I wasnt opting to have a girl Reason being may be i cudnt bear the pain or issues she'll b facing after marriage if Allah forbids she gets a tough husband like his father. And honestly how in the world wud u justify the pain of ur own daughter when u r unable to treat someone elses daughter that is ur wife properlyor respectfully.  But Allah i think has another plan in this context too.  As few days back i dreamt of myself carrying a girl and nurturing her. Throughout this scenario i cudnt c my husband anywhr in the scene.  But anyways i accepted that too.  Again i wish to just stop having kids aftwards as family vl b complete and i wish n pray that my husband respects that too.

PLEASE ALLAH B VD ME & GIVE ME STRENGTH TO ACCOMPLISH WHAT I HAVE FOR MY KIDS IN MY MIND I SIMPLY WANT MY KIDS TO BE RESPECTFUL AND OBEDIENT AND HIGHLY AFFABLE TO ALL.
AMEEN