trying to be strong but can't help it this time

For some ppl around life just seems to be complete full of beautiful things to feel and njoy themselves in watever the situtaion they are in. but for some ppl life is just the opposite they r emotionless and stubborn and completely materialistic and always crying over wat they don;t have. and then v c ppl who have the combination of both these qualities... they try to pose as if nobody can hurt them emotionally but its the lack of trust that restricts such ppl from njoying life...

As i mentioned earlier that my degree is now complete and m doing all the pre-graduation/convocation ceremony documentation these days. As at first i received the msg that convocation at my university is going to be held at this n this date and all the info was delivered to me; at first instant i msged it onwards to my father coz he promised me earlier that he will definitely visit home at the time of my graduation... i asked him that papa i want u to be in the audience cherishing me the most when i receive my degree... and from within i thought when i'll get it; first thing i wanna do is to wave at u and proudly say that yes dad i became an engineer; thanking you and honoring you from the depths of my heart for all the investment and time u put on me... i'll dedicate this degree to u... i presumed that this will not only honor my dad but at some point he'll feel satisfied that yes his only daughter has done wat once he dreamt of; for his children... I thought that my father will feel out of this world as I graduate; and in some more years my brothers will also be getting the same... he would sleep proudly that night and thinking that he should now dream ahead for his young ones :).... BUT its not necessary that things go as they r planned... and now in my case its getting frequent... my deviations from the personal goals has begin to move around 180 degree and completely in an opposite direction.

Bottom line is my dad has this training to some other country on same dates and has received the tickets and like its just impossible for him to return back home on the same day as my convocation... now all that i thought and dream of is about to get crashed on the same day as my convocation... can't express it much to anybody infact not accepting the reality even... can't express it to dad he's feeling helpless himself... my brothers or mum out here as to some extent v r each others strength n i don;t wanna be the weak end to this strength... i wish something magical happens and this convocation date extends please God do something, anything just a miracle so that i can have my father beside me present on my big day... plz Allah plz...!!!! :,(