To get what u want and to live the dream of ur choice... each one of us pays a cost... that cost in my case is that from a real reluctant, distrustful and thinking twice before leaping ahead in life... i have now become one bitch who doesn't even remember if she is a girl... having some rules to follow... i don;t think much before i act these days, i just go through it and eep the later part to others to think about... well hello thats the real life... not that i used to dream about...!!!
Yeah i was a big time dreamer, i've dreamt since my childhood, so much so abt my future life or my past one, i've mold my imagination in many dimensions, but never like the way i've become now... honestly i have become a localite now, i seriously don;t feel creepy now when ppl take a raping glare at me, i don;t take it 2 heart when ppl slightly touch their arms (intentionally or unintentionaly)...
My self-esteem has died already yaar... how can i complain that ppl talking behind my back are the ones responsible for point fingers on my character, when i know the reason of lowering that esteem is myself...
Anyways i should snap out of self-fighting avatar and begin to think that this is what life is all about... this is what i was suppose to do and this is who i m and have become now... i should come into reality and let my dream wipe out all the good things i imagined during my childhood... this is destined and this is how i should and meant to be...!!!
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